What I love about the idea of Teaching Yoga or being in a Yoga class is that it is profoundly personal. I love intimate spaces and conversations as oppose to big classes or having loads of friends. There is something beautiful & sacred about small groups and it enables you to connect and share energy on a deeper level. I have been toying with the idea of learning to teach Yoga with Belly Dance for some time now and for years I’d not only push that idea aside but I’d allow others place doubt in my mind by implying these ‘ambitions’ were a silly idea. I went through a lot of soul searching in 2013 and I was quite solitary, soon a fire inside of me rekindled and I have actively participated in allowing this warm creative energy burn within and through me whereas in the past I held on to it in fear of judgement, this is also perhaps why I suffered with bladder and kidney infections as they were physical manifestations of trapped emotion, self confidence issues & lacking the courage to say “No” or “I’m going to do what makes me happy regardless of judgement” because my base chakra was unbalanced. I think the trick to happiness is acknowledging our lives are short & precious so go ahead and do something with it, challenge yourself, if you love doing something why not learn more about it and become a master of it and share it with others?
Over the first half of this year I took it upon myself to change my life because I felt trapped by inner conflicts and external forces. I can’t change external obstacles or the judgemental mind set of others but I can work on my inner conflicts and get to work on me, just me. I had to think of myself for a change in order to go back to supporting others, If I couldn’t be there for myself and be confident from within, how could I do that for others? The time is now!
So I set about this new journey which is actually an old journey that has been dormant for many years. As a child I was the strange one in the family, collecting crystals, I had my own cauldron and researched spells. As I grew up I learned about the Chakras, Reincarnation and Mudras and at university I learned about Yoga, Meditation, Temple Dancers and Tantra. I enjoy reading about Indian Philosophy, Buddhism and Persian Mysticism alongside the Gita and the Yoga Sutras. I love the strange mixture of wisdom, clarity, alchemy, mysticism & connecting to a higher force and I love the flowing energy between the mind, body and spirit.
I am a creative soul, there is no doubt about that, this is me, this is my gift God has given me, whether it is art, belly dance or yoga, it is all the same on my gigantic creative spinning wheel of fiery rainbows. I have gone as far as I can go (for now) in terms of art therapy & psychology, until I can do my masters one day to be a certified art therapist I am content I am qualified to be a community artist who can lead harmonious art workshops in a variety of places like hospitals, residential homes, kids club and mental health care. Now is the time I work on the other dominant side to my creativity and that is my Belly Dancing, body movement and physical well-being. I passed my Anatomy & Physiology Level 3 with flying colours, I am on the verge of completing my Dance Leadership Training, I have just passed my Nutrition & Health course and have now enrolled on a mini course in Sports Psychology & a Hatha Yoga Teaching course. This is a stepping stone (or a platform if you wish) that will give me good grounding for if/when I go onto study with the Devon school of Yoga. But for now it enables me to incorporate Hatha Yoga into my belly dance classes as a safe and gentle warm-up before participants begin dancing. Before this year is up I will also study a short course in Dance Therapy.
I love Yoga, I love it’s grace and I love the quietness of it. When practising my asanas something amazing happens to me, my mind goes silent and this is a very rare occurrence because although I am a quiet person and I can appear like a Zen Monk, my mind is like a honey bee constantly buzzing around in search of honey. The moment I step onto my mat I concentrate on my breathing, I actually visualize my lungs as giant trees (see how my arty side still comes into play) & I focus on my postures as though I am a moving sculpture (Arty thoughts again). I am already learning a lot from my current Yoga teacher Jo Thyssen, she runs a beautiful studio space called The Yoga Loft and her voice is soothing yet playful. They say people come into your life as guides or messengers, I think she is one of them to me and I am thankful to be able to attend her classes.
In many ways I am new to this so it is a challenge and I have difficulties with remembering & with balance due to my Dyslexia but as Paulo Coelho says ““Fortunate are those who take the first steps.” and as Barney Stinson from the show ‘How I met your Mother‘ states “Challenge Accepted!“