I am rather happy right now, there are things I am working on that need changing because they don’t make me feel fulfilled but I’m patient for the day I can finally let go of things that no longer serve a purpose. I think it is vitally important to always remember that you do actually have a choice to make a change, if you hate your job but obviously need a job, you can work towards boosting your CV and doing online courses in a career path you desire and when the time is right you’ll feel ready to apply for a better suited job, this may take 5 months or 5 years, that part doesn’t matter because time is in many ways irrelevant and a man made concept, what matters is: Your mind has woken up to realize everything is in your grasp and all it takes are baby steps towards the change you want to see or want to be.
I recently met an amazing person who is a professional handstand practitioner and I asked him what his secret to success was and he said “Well, for a long time I was struggling in dead end jobs, I was a kitchen porter, a waiter and a gardener and I wanted a change, I said to myself ‘this is not my life.’ I had a passion for stunts and doing all kinds of arm balancing and hand stands and so began working on what I love. I shut myself away from social media and socializing for 3 years so I could be dedicated to my practice and now I am followed by thousands of people on instagram and I teach workshops around the world, tomorrow I fly to Hong Kong to teach, I love my life, it’s busy but it’s doing what I love every day!”
it’s people like that, that prove if you manifest what you truly desire and put it into action, it will blossom. It is hard work, which is why most people don’t want to try, it’s a lot easier being controlled by a corporation, moaning about things and taking home a pay check every month, I know this because I’ve been there. But as an artist, I wasn’t feeling fulfilled and so I made a decision to take ownership of my life and happiness and I am only just seeing the fruits of my labour, my seeds are sprouting but I still have to nurture what I am manifesting whilst it is slowly beginning to blossom. I’ve made sacrifices along the way, I don’t socialize much and I’ve opted not to own a car or the latest Iphone so I can save money or spend it on things I need for this passion. My life is far from perfect but I am happy because I am working on what I love which in turn makes me feel love and thus I become love, I embody love.
You can not fully grasp love in it’s all encompassing, cosmic vibrancy if you dislike yourself or have nothing in your life that makes your cup over flow. In the end it comes down to you to make that change, to find something to nurture and enjoy, the key is devotion like my favourite Yoga Sutra 1:14 Practice becomes firmly grounded when continued for a long time and with reverent devotion.
So here is where I am at now: I work two jobs, one I dislike but gives me a steady income and one I enjoy as it is giving me confidence in teaching and leading classes but it’s a temporary contract. After years of continuing professional development in numerous topics like mental health awareness, anatomy, the subtle body, creative therapies & kids yoga teacher training I am now ready to go freelance. This will be a slow process and I will have to keep the part time job I dislike for a short while but this September I will be promoting myself as a Kids yoga teacher around Devon (and even internationally), I hope to start teaching at least two classes a week which will eventually build up over time and will also include art & meditation in these classes. The same will happen with belly dance classes, teaching twice weekly and will include Reiki, Chakra Balancing & Champissage. This is what I am currently manifesting and I have other bigger life changing events I am also working towards. Not that long ago I was lost, had little or not support and wanted to give up my dreams to work full time in a job I hate, but something inside me was broken open & freed. It has taken 4 years to come this far and from the ground up I rebuilt my life again, the very first step was learning to love myself. You have nothing to fear; Love and all is coming.
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